The Simple Randomness of Me

Late night thoughts…

Oh! She was wonderful! Oh!
Well, it’s a shame, she is insanely wonderful.
I feel alive in links to my body whole…
Well I consider enough all the things I’ve done.
A pretty little thing - don’t let this just run away.
I know I think too much,
About a world where I think too much.

There’s no more use in lying.
To tell the truth, I don’t care what you do.
…there’s no more use in denying…
We act in bitterness,
and then scream our very souls free.
I would react, but then my mask would slip.
And you’d see me…
There was no more use in crying
if there no more use in hiding.
You do what you do.
I don’t care it just proves,
nobody seems to care.
Cause nobody’s ever here.
Nobody wants to listen.
Cause nobody’s even there.
So we end up alone .

Taken from the album “The Crux” by HURT.

I still think about you every day. I wake up thinking about you, wondering how your day is going. I close my eyes at night thinking about you, wondering how your day was; hoping it was spectacular. I daydream of you sitting there, smiling the way you do when you are happy; hoping you are doing so in that moment. I still care deeply about you. I wish we talked more. I feel like it is a one sided friendship because you never initiate anything with me. I don’t recall the last time you started a conversation with me. So this is me saying I miss you. But, I’m leaving it up to you. I don’t even know if you are going to read this, or if you really even care. At this point though, it’s up to you. I still want you as a friend, Destiny.

If you ask me how I’m doin I would say I’m doin just fine I would lie and say that you’re not on my mind.

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